Listen With Your Heart

Since I was away last week, I had little time to touch up on my knowledge of the world, and consequently were just catching up with the what's-new for everybody. Apologies for my ignorance of this blog, too.

I had a chat with Poink the other day. It is rather funny that [after the chat] I came to a conclusion we were in a deadpan condition [for now] in terms of relationships. As for myself, it's not the actual desire to have somebody acting as if I'm his special someone. It's the thought whether I am normal or suffering from some kind of mentally degenerative diseases. I'm starting to see close friends getting into engagements and stuff like that (!!) Worse still, sometimes I wonder whether I am actually able to communicate effectively with other human beings...

I'm also preparing for a design competition coming up in mid-November. Once the pattern-making classes were finished, I get myself home early and draw all night long. It gets tiring, but it's refreshing too, given it has been a while since I concentrated on preparing sketches. Sometimes the sketches take a near-obsession level of commitment I am inclined to categorise them as artworks. Other than that, I haven't been devouring pictures to the extent I practised some six months ago. Is it actually possible to aim for your dream, set your goals and chase them accordingly... all while living a decent life?

There is a financial goal I'm going for: collecting three months' worth of pay within the next five. There is a career goal I have set: working in Melbourne. There is a long-term career goal: making a living out of making clothes. There are also other goals which are way too much to be listed by their name in this blog...

I have weird questions, too... for example, will I have cultural shock when I return to Melbourne? Who am I to you? How will I leave my mark on history? These are the questions that I'm searching their answers for.

I believe this blog entry serves a greater use in the future. Hopefully I haven't made you all depressed or worried about me - I'm fine, just a bit tired and [probably] screwed up. All as you can see. Take care :))

When you can't find your way through the night
When you've lost touch and nothing's feeling right
You can't find that path that leads you on
And you don't know which road to choose
That's when you've got to

Listen with your heart
Listen to your soul
Inside you'll find the answer
The place you need to go

Listen with your heart
Your heart will let you know
No matter where you are
Just listen and your heart will lead you home