Saturday, November 13, 2004

Fly Me To The Moon

In holiday mode...

Okay, I am still in my exam period (barely halfway through.) My brain is filled with these other 'non-study-related' thoughts; not all of them are even issues worthy to be given even some piece of thought! Like my earlier obsession with green tea milkshake... it was a good thing A.B.E.M went to Samurai for dinner and was willing to help me out.

Right now I'm up to Week 8 stuff for 309. Still four more topics to go (apart from the current one I'm on): one sorta 'conquered', one halfway conquered i.e. struggling, and the other two are... blank canvases. I've spent some 5+mins up to this point in the blog due to switching back-and-forth between this and the PDF files. Alright everyone, this is not a good way to study! ...which will probably means it'll take me quite a while to simultaneously blog and do tute questions.

::starts lurking on at 12:25AM::

::lurking mode off at 1:20AM::

Okay, tired enough. Can do tute 8 stuff but do not understand what I am doing. Time to go to bed. My mum's around, and she's meant to have a rest. It'd be great if she could rest without waiting for me (a late-nighter owlish person) to accompany her to go to bed (an early sleeper.) Got to rise up early tomorrow, aiming to finish all the 309 topics by noon (pray hard!!) That leaves me with less than 5 hours of sleep.

If I could really run away, I would. Probably. But then, I've made a promise not to. Problems that are left undealt accumulates at a frighteningly monstrous rate.

If this uni student feels she so much deserves a break from uni pressures, how would a full-time career mum (and a full-time postgrad student as well as businesswoman) would so need a break. She is burning both sides of her candle and definitely deserves this break. I hope she will be able to enjoy her time here and catch up with the pleasures of life... in her terms, "modom, jalan, makan, modom". That roughly translates to "sleep, have a walk, eat, sleep."

Somewhat tortured with the idea of leaving home, and somewhat excited (if not cynical) about it. How will I cope? Where can I find my support system if I 'go back'? What if I go somewhere else? The future is uncertain, and all I can foresee and expect so far is December's working holiday. I'm buying a kanzashi book and will learn the art during that period. The slight prospect of studying something that involves mainly the right side of the brain excites me, altough it may seem distant right now.

I'll leave you with a good-night lullaby for grown-ups. Take care, be courageous and good night.

Fly me to the moon
And let me sing among those stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars

In other words, hold my hand
In other words, baby kiss me

Fill my heart with song
And let me sing for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore

In other words, please be true
In other words, I love you

1 comment:

Scarlet said...

Hey ya, good luck with your next exam and its preparation :D. I just noticed you use my 'naming convention' for the title, lol :D. Anyway, they are all great titles you picked. Wish you the best, girl.