Rise and Fall

Today, there was a junior school friend's wedding held in here. I didn't come since I was tired... which is probably good (I get to sleep more) or bad (missed a chance to catch up with others.) I don't know why it's all so sudden... it's hard to not think negatively of what might be the reasons. Probably she is just well mature beyond her age and decides it's time to get married. It's not my place to judge.

It is saddening to discover friends going on their own ways. Sometimes I wish the good old times would come back once again (which is unlikely), but at other times I can only smile and try to understand the decisions they make. After all, each of us is different and has his or her own reasoning as to why he/she chooses to do things one way and not otherwise.

Which leads me to think... I am so dumb (in many areas.)

By the way, Mely, if you're reading this blog... I'm coming to your place over the next weekend. I'd like to get your mobile phone number (mine still hasn't changed) so that we can meet if you're not too caught up with life.

Je veux danser encore, pour danser avec tout mon coeur et être contenu sachant qu'il est le meilleur je peut faire. Je vraiment.

Sometimes in life you feel the fight is over
And it seems as though the writings on the wall
Superstar you finally made it,
but once the picture becomes tainted,
it's what they call
The rise and fall

8th World Wonder

Work and school has been very demanding in the past fortnight. I got some work assigned to me indirectly due to my so-called 'appearance' at a new local TV station. It started as a dare and was just me blabbing along on front of an automated video recorder in a box. The resulting footage was then cut, mercilessly edited and subtitled "Demands for a Pay Rise", then aired repeatedly. The fun part of it is free publicity. The uncomfortable part of it is the flak 'poor you' responses people give.

I'm in need of more encouragement! No projected Pantone purchases for the next month as I have forty of them now... probably enough to figure out why I haven't added anything new to my wardrobe (as if I have any.) I'm going away next week, so I hope I can find something good over there. But above all, I want my portfolio finished in the next two weeks and then be sent over. So it is the portfolio or nothing... I really do need encouragements, and pushy lines too!

Alright, off to bed now. It is really nice to be able to doze off your Saturday mornings to catch up with the lack of sleep I have on weekdays. Take care! ^^

I guess I'm just falling deeper into something I've never known
But the way I'm feeling, makes me realise that it can't be wrong
Your love's like a summer rain
Washing my doubts away

More To Life

Well, well, well.

Three things on hand till the end of March: two work-related projects and a portfolio to finish. It might be an impossible show to run, but we never know. When they are done, I'm off to Melbourne: the one reward I really want.

Some of my workmates actually won this constant achiever programme at the office... and the prize is a trip to Australia!! [First reaction: wanna wanna wanna come along as a... tour guide :p] To Sydney and Gold Coast!! [Final reaction: eeeeurgh, hot and sticky places, stay away!!] Can't get them to bring me some canvases to Melbourne (and my sketchbooks here) and can't get them to get me Koko Black, but Jols should be fine ^^ anyway, within less than two months I'm off to Melbourne.

I do want to win competitions and challenges. It's not for the money, but it's for the recognition. About two weeks ago I had a small speech inside this O-Box thingy in e(X). It ranged from the smelly socks I wore to an earlier bowling session, the inflation and consequent pay rises, and my new job placement. Guess what... the edited clip was aired, and now I stand a chance of winning a W900 mobile phone. Fingers crossed ^.^ yay! If my dad wants to use a Sony Ericsson, he can have a pick between the two. If he wants to use a Nokia, I'll probably sell my old one and get him something decent... something with a colour screen, an okay camera and Bluetooth connection. I think it's about time he uses a Bluetooth headset, before he mistakes mine as an earring yet again (sorry Dad, just found it to be very very amusing :D)

I really appreciate my friends' encouragements, especially Gincu for the SMS and DD for the email. Thank you for putting a smile in my day ^.^ Aah, how I miss Melbourne so much.

(Gambatte Marsha, it's not too far away! Go go go Marsha! ^o^)

Oh, and I get a new buddy for car-pooling. Which is good... a lower aggregate fuel consumption level is good.

Looking forward to Sunday. Will be meeting DJ and Mikey. Eileen seems to like 'om Alex' really much she gets to mash up his laptop's keyboards ^.^ that was so sweet... Ichad and I actually joked that it'd take at least four more years before that kind of scene would happen between Alex and his own daughter. Awwwww.

Enough talk; time to go to bed, everyone. Take care :))

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed...

There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'Cause there more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure
There's gotta be more to life

(exhausted)

To put it simply, I'm exhausted. I wish somehow work will give way to school.

And broke too, to top it off with. Well, not absolutely broke, but relatively penniless. Blame it on the Pantone ^^;