Open Up Your Eyes

Failed yet another time to be understanding towards others. Tell me please, how do we make up for blotched attempts?

Exactly how do I express it... I don't know. Let's see how it will be tomorrow *fingers crossed* I am. Such. A fool.

Starting from last Friday, my let's-ride-my-car-to-work buddy is officially out of the game. Life feels good when you're able to pick your songs and sing them on top of your lungs (be it in Indonesian or English or another European language). Life sucks when you have no one to share your songs with, and when you have to fish out your own wallet to pay for tollroad fees. But then, how you judge it (i.e. whether it sucks or not) is entirely your choice.

Going to bed early tonight. Just another pedantic note, there's this error with the Blogger site which causes me unable to list the correct time of this post was published. Hence, the four most-recent posts (including this one) were recorded to be submitted four hours later than I had originally done.

I am sorry, really sorry! >.< No amount of soothe-talking could probably amend it... I am really, really sorry... (will try hard for it, don't know how though.)

Take care of others, and see you soon! :))

Throw yourself aside
and hear the gentle cry
of the voice of peace that gave up all to fill the void inside
Give away the fight
Release your foolish pride
the very bond is broken down you need to leave behind

And the time has come to realize
and see the plan you've been designed for
So face the fear of all unknown
and see the heart inside
So open up your eyes
So open up your eyes

open up your eyes

Can you sense the feeling that there's more than what you know?
It's a fire that burns within that only seems to grow
There's a price that's given and which only love can pay
And the time is here and now, don't let it fade away

So open up your eyes, open up your eyes
So open up your eyes, open up your eyes

Selfish Song

I don't like myself. There are times when I'm trying to make good decisions and follow them to later realise I had been acting foolish and not willing to listen (scared, perhaps?) I'm really sorry for it. Please, please, please do tell me if you catch me doing this kind of slip-up in the future.

Second bit of news is that I got my hair iron. Yay! ^^


Third bit of news is my boss/direct supervisor is moving out of town for the next year or two due to work mutations. Kind of sad not to have him around, but life goes on, and the coming year will probably be a bit of a different challenge to me (fingers crossed).

Progressing with Gincu's skirt. Aiming to finish it by year-end.

Addicted to Sudoku and is learning to stay away from it during working hours (lucky I couldn't download it to my mobile phone.)

In dire need of sleep... last week I had a full week of company events. Had to run around to places - spending something close to half a million to refuel my petrol tank during *that* week alone, and about a fifth of that amount on tollroad and parking fees. I'm used to managing events under pressure, but last week was pure tiring. One night I was behind the wheels for close to six hours, more than enough to test one's endurance and patience.

I'm glad a lot of my friends finish their study this year-end, but it's weird as well. I will remember them as those folks I know during my uni years, and will probably stay in my head as what they look like right now. The past can be neither regained nor recreated. Some controllable variables of happiness lie on our hands; these we can decide on.

Sleepy, and happy to note I'm changing the way people at the office dress. Pray so that the influences I exert on others in the future are positive. Take care of others, and see you soon :))

Every revolution leads the people on
with promises and changes egalitarian
You have a Mussolini, Stalin, Bonaparte
well, they prove a revolution doesn't really change your heart

I've never grown from the terrible two's
Don't you know, nothing changes after the coup

Who is gonna sing my selfish song
Well, the answer is me, so don't sing along
Who is gonna change this heart of stone
Before my God my life is a selfish song

They build a wall from the East to the West
Saying maybe Jesus was a communist
'cause he spoke love and equality
Then tell me why did they nail Him upon a tree?

'Cause he said, everyone is singing such a selfish song
And we don't want help, not from anyone
I can make a change in your heart of stone
Hey, don't you know that you can't do it on your own
On your own.

Thank You

The theme for my office's Christmas celebration is Don't worry, He leads me!

Somebody told me once to pray as if God is the only one who can help you and try as if you're the only one who can help you. Well, this is true. I hold onto the fact that God owns everything, which means God owns every single hair iron in this world, and nothing is too small to be out of his plan.

Funny how it is easy to criticise others, but hard to make your 'positive inputs' into a positive catalyst for others. The world is imperfect after all; we strive for the best in life, yet we think changes are too hard to be done. This means we are hypocrites after all.

It is easy to be hurt by what others do to you (either intentionally or subconsciously), but I will persevere. I pray so that we all can be a better person in life. Take care ^__^

Just a little longer I wanna pray
Can't get You out of my mind, so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

Wait for Me

On the issue of body weight, I really should put on some weight... or should I? Measuring myself on a scale, my body weight hasn't changed since I moved nearly half a year ago (gosh, half a year, that's a lot of time.) Measuring myself physically... my fat cheeks seemed to move down to the girth area. In short: eat more and do physical activities more. Solution taken at the moment: going to gym after work. It's tiring, but it helps me sleep better at night. Ideal/preferred solution: rewind half a year and [probably] skip the walk-in interview.

I had a purchase shipped in from Brisbane to up here, but the postal office guys seem way too happy to extract FEES and TAXES and DUTIES on the item. The tax on the item has already been paid for prior to sending it, my goodness me! And that means it is no longer an item tradeable for commerce or an import, but a personal item that should be subject to no tax if sent thru post. The guy who handled the package left the wrong mobile number (or the maidservant might have recorded it incorrectly), so I called the information line and got the office number. Will give them a call second thing in the morning. Keeping my fingers crossed so I won't have to pay taxes on it over here ^.^ getting taxed once is enough.

I think I remember this line from the Customs and Duty form normally filled up upon entrance to this country. It reads like this...

"Have you made a tax-free purchase overseas of over USD *** per person, or over USD *** per family?" [answering 'yes' is subject to Customs' duties.]

Luckily, mine is not tax-free. I'm praying, I'll gladly wag the receipt for him to see, and quote the above-mentioned line. All fingers crossed ^.^ yes Marsha, yes you do have a lawyer's wit to match your cheeky attitude. I don't know whether I'm being sarcastic to or complimenting myself.

Lately, I'm trying to say a prayer of thanks every night before going to bed. It's true you do have a choice over how you run your feelings and moods; it filters the little voices going about in my head. And for now, thank God for Him waking me up early tomorrow morning :)) Hey, an early receipt is good for guaranteed performance.

Still wishing for the good ol' time to come back. It won't come back; I will make my happiness happen. Take care! Going to bed now, planning to leave home just after sunrise tomorrow morning and must pack clothes up beforehand. Nitey nitey, or have a good day depending when you read this blog ^^

P.S. wondering how I can contact DD nowadays... Pau, do you have an idea? And Ponky, have you asked Silly to drop the CDs at #56's mailbox? Thankies!

Now I know you may have made mistakes,
But there's forgiveness and a second chance.
So wait for me, Darling wait for me, wait for me, wait for me